Starting 2025: An Open Letter to my Mom

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Hey Mom,

It's me again. I'm sorry; I wasn't planning on writing you again. But um, I'm really scared right now, and I wish you were here to reassure me. See, 2024 ended kinda rough. And 2025... 2025 is looking like it's going to be a big scary year.

I guess I should tell you about 2024 first. A friend walked out. Someone I trusted. They said they cared. They said they would help. They didn't. It's left my little family scrambling. It doesn't feel like we have a lot of support.

My in-laws can't seem to make up their minds about me. One day, they say I need to fix my life on my own. The next, they want to help and listen. I don't get it, and I don't know what to do. I spent Christmas alone because we weren't sure if I would be welcomed. That sucked a lot.

We're moving soon. We're leaving the town we both grew up in and love so much. I don't know the city we're moving to very well. And it's a temporary move too, only six months, so I don't see the point in getting to know the area too much. So I feel like I'm losing my home.

We're hoping to buy a house at the end of the six months. And that feels huge to me. I know it's huge. I wish I could ask you questions and look at houses with you. But also, I wish I could tell you everything about it that scares me, like not having enough money and unforseen costs.

If we can get a house, we wanna get married this year. We're thinking October. We've looked at potential dates. I'm so excited about it, but I feel so alone too. I've realized that you won't help me pick a dress and that I will have almost no family there if we do. You would side eye everything about what I hope to do at our wedding, but I still wish you would be there.

I'll be 26 this year, possibly a homeowner, and married. I wish you were around to see it. I wish I could text you updates and ask advice. I wish I could share these things with you. I wish you could be proud of how hard I'm working for the things I want. I'm sorry that I can't share these things with you. I really am.

I love you, Mom. Miss you a ton too.

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