June 2026 Journal Entry

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Dear Younger Me,

If I could tell you one thing today, if I could go back to you at 16 years old, it would be this: You heal.

You will one day be 26 and happy. You will be loved and seen and known. One day, you will have a home. You will grow plants; you will grow flowers. Your alarm with go off at 7:30 so you can go running with your dog.

You will read books, and they won't be a desperate escape. You will read them because you enjoy it and not because it's the only way you feel like you can breath. You will laugh at the characters and enjoy the plotlines. And you'll do it without wishing your life had the happy ending. You will read because it makes you happy.

Words will stop being weapons and just be tools. They'll soften. They will rush out of you with excitement and joy, a waterfall still. That waterfall, though, will spring from everything you love and not from a fear that you will never be listened to. You learn to let the words out without the constant edge. They become ways to make others smile, and you enjoy that. You really do.

You don't lose your love of fantasy either. You will still dress up and do makeup. You will still speak of dragons and elves and beautiful things. And you will consider yourself a part of it. You will look in the mirror, and you will love the face, body, and hair you see. You truly will.

Your brain will stop screaming. It will be peaceful. Not always, but most of the time. Maybe that's enough. But this life you one day build, ten years from your 16 year old life, will be a greater peace than any prayers or church services ever brought you.

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